Hey .. What's Up With Everyone?
Posted on 2008-May-7 at 02:13
I had lunch with a couple of friends from the green-logo-company that we all buy the petrol from, yesterday and I had MoshJantan tagged along too. For lunch as he was hungry and to drive us there, in my car. A long, very fun lunch. Men have no qualms about click-ing with other men, no reservations whatsoever. Women need to think about it. Not me, though.
Anyways, we chatted and I said to him that I haven't been blog-hoppingly mad these days and was suprised to find that my frequently frequented blogs have less frequent new entries these days. He seemed to think otherwise, the only dwindling thing is the commenting. Hmm! That I have to agree.
These days, I find myself blog-hopping at home, using my faithful, scratched, squeaky nokia phone. That gets me updated on everyone's lives but it hinders me greatly from leaving comments. Excuses-mexcuses!
Well. Anyways.
Nagai, whom I've known since I was 15 and has kept in touch until now just g-chatted me before lunch to tell that he's tendering his resignation letter tomorrow after 7 long years with that company. A record, he exclaimed for himself. I sighed. My 11.62 years record has remained untouched and approaching a legacy.
I wasn't so shocked at him resigning cos I think he's destined for greater things elsewhere and he talked about leaving countless times before. I do too, but never actually pursue any of my leads. He's teased me about being such a whiner but with no courage to walk the talk. Aku sungguh kecil hati.
Anyways. What bamboozled me was olab's and OO's leaving their desks for fancier "desks". I was floored. I envy them. Aku sungguh jeles. Aku sungguh hijau dengan envi.
Wasn't it like yesterday when elisa announced that she's leaving her desk to follow the love of her life? Wasn't it yesterday I had Lollies in front of me, pained telling me she's leaving too? And then Famy left. And then OO left. OLAB followed suit. OMG!!
There's been a lot of messages in the ummikusayang group about SAHM vs working mom and it's just gotten a tad too much for me. They were talking serious stuff and I just switched off. But when one by one, my dear friends leave this rat race to pursue their dreams, it rattles me, it makes me stop and think. We're not the same. We're not even in the same boat, so OLAB tells me. But it still makes me wonder, why am I here when most have left. Have I done the right thing for me for the last 35 years? Can I suddenly veer elsewhere? Would I be happier? Would I be needier? I wish I could see the future, so I can make decisions consiously. But the future's not ours to see.
Ah well. I wish you all well. I'm fine, really. I do love this job but I know there's more to me that the job. This isn't the life I dreamed of, although it is mine at the moment and I'm making the best of it.
p/s I'm still divided over the pet issue. Anyone has sugar gliders?
Anyways, we chatted and I said to him that I haven't been blog-hoppingly mad these days and was suprised to find that my frequently frequented blogs have less frequent new entries these days. He seemed to think otherwise, the only dwindling thing is the commenting. Hmm! That I have to agree.
These days, I find myself blog-hopping at home, using my faithful, scratched, squeaky nokia phone. That gets me updated on everyone's lives but it hinders me greatly from leaving comments. Excuses-mexcuses!
Well. Anyways.
Nagai, whom I've known since I was 15 and has kept in touch until now just g-chatted me before lunch to tell that he's tendering his resignation letter tomorrow after 7 long years with that company. A record, he exclaimed for himself. I sighed. My 11.62 years record has remained untouched and approaching a legacy.
I wasn't so shocked at him resigning cos I think he's destined for greater things elsewhere and he talked about leaving countless times before. I do too, but never actually pursue any of my leads. He's teased me about being such a whiner but with no courage to walk the talk. Aku sungguh kecil hati.
Anyways. What bamboozled me was olab's and OO's leaving their desks for fancier "desks". I was floored. I envy them. Aku sungguh jeles. Aku sungguh hijau dengan envi.
Wasn't it like yesterday when elisa announced that she's leaving her desk to follow the love of her life? Wasn't it yesterday I had Lollies in front of me, pained telling me she's leaving too? And then Famy left. And then OO left. OLAB followed suit. OMG!!
There's been a lot of messages in the ummikusayang group about SAHM vs working mom and it's just gotten a tad too much for me. They were talking serious stuff and I just switched off. But when one by one, my dear friends leave this rat race to pursue their dreams, it rattles me, it makes me stop and think. We're not the same. We're not even in the same boat, so OLAB tells me. But it still makes me wonder, why am I here when most have left. Have I done the right thing for me for the last 35 years? Can I suddenly veer elsewhere? Would I be happier? Would I be needier? I wish I could see the future, so I can make decisions consiously. But the future's not ours to see.
Ah well. I wish you all well. I'm fine, really. I do love this job but I know there's more to me that the job. This isn't the life I dreamed of, although it is mine at the moment and I'm making the best of it.
p/s I'm still divided over the pet issue. Anyone has sugar gliders?
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